I am a new woman now. Done with three years of schooling and an internship, I am now living it large at home. It feels really, really good to be done. I feel like I've accomplished something that has been very hard and therefore get lots of satisfaction out of it. As busy as I was before, I have absolutely no desire to become busy again. I'm finally secure with my stay-at-home hood. I had a hard time staying at home all day when Pearl first came because I felt like I had to do so many things each day in order to justify staying home and tried so hard to be productive. I also felt like I had to make sure Bryan knew I wasn't just lazing around all day while he worked. Then came the internship, fraught with extreme pressure and productivity for 6 whole months. I think I got so much done in those 6 months that I don't feel like I need to be productive ever again. Like I said, I am now secure with doing nothing- well, if you call taking care of a baby "doing nothing" than you are not a parent yet. Anyway, it's nice. Pearl and I sat on the grass yesterday and she sang her little songs to the plants and shredded the leaves. I worked on the computer while she ate a dead bee on the floor. I read her books while she drooled on the pages. We went grocery shopping and she told me what she thought about all the products I was buying and made sure they were durable by hitting them together. She is a fun little companion. As long as she's not teething.